The Fall Season is Upon Us, and I'm Back in Blog Land
As some of you may know, because I have been talking about it for quite some time now, I’ve just written a book which is in the final stages of being edited (yay!). My gears have been turning consistently for the past couple of weeks wondering how I am going to market myself, what my platform is, and how best to share my vision. I am still letting the thoughts come through, and at the same time, I’m experiencing a continuous spillover of information, now that my writing channels have opened over the past year of much self-criticism, worry, and a whole bunch of good-hearted and well-intentioned work. Surprisingly . . . I did not expect writing to be a part of my career, yet here we are at the beginning of a new chapter, and I hope some of you will walk this journey with me.
You know those moments when someone tells you something and it lands just in the right way? Like it’s just opened a pathway to something your heart may be interested in exploring? I do, and a specific one of those moments comes to mind right now. Many years ago, when I opened up to the realization that we all have an infinite nature, and the experience of living my soul, I found myself carrying a whole bunch of pain, and not knowing what to do with it. Then I learned some new skills, and worked diligently to reduce that pain, and as I did I met many sweet and beloved souls along the way to help me on my path. One of these people occupies this moment. A hypnotherapist who specializes in past lives, and when I walked in for my appointment, she looked down at her paperwork, read aloud Marnie O’Farrell off the intake form, looked up at me and said, "well isn’t that a great name for an author." What a random thing to say I thought, but here we are seven years later.
What I explored with her in my session was quite profound, she brought me back to a past life memory of being burned at the stake, which sounds daunting! Yet, it’s also a typical experience for healing souls to have to reconnect with, integrate, and remember. After I relived and completed that memory (in a regulated state), she paused for a moment, looked at her watch, and understood that we still had fifteen minutes left on the clock. Then she glanced up to the left, as if engaged in some psychic conversation with a being hovering near to her head. She gave a quick nod and said, “ok they are advising you to connect with your inner child.”
For the next fifteen minutes that's what we did, I laid back in the chair and she guided me into a space where I met little Marnie for the first time. And when I found her my heart felt sadness, there she was huddled in the corner totally afraid. Tears welled from my eyes, how could I have not noticed this before? During the session my facilitator proceeded to take me through a gentle process of connection, and where we let little Marnie be the one in charge. Breath and stillness took precedence, and in those fifteen minutes, all I did was say I was sorry and give her a meaningful hug. Before I left back to my life in the outside world, my facilitator suggested that I visualize a safe space for her to play, and where I could come back to meet her in the future. That’s the creative malleability available to us in our inner worlds, and then my time was up. Now, seven years later I am still getting to the bottom of that mystery—why was little me so utterly traumatized? And, as my new book revolves around trauma, how it’s created and what we can do about it to heal and become more whole, that is what my focus is going to be over this next series of blog posts.
It’s my fall harvest of healing content related to trauma and current events—at the very least expect it to be colourful!
Some of you reading this now may have known me in the past as a child, some from high school, some from university, some from spiritual circles, and some from my many adventures abroad. For some, you are meeting me for the first time, and in this moment I have become Marnie the truth seeker, Marnie a soul on assignment, and Marnie the sensitive heart that wishes that everyone may have the opportunity to learn goodness and joy towards themselves. Because, that is what I feel most of the time and I know from almost a decade of work in this department, that to get there it takes effort. So in that sense, I am also a spiritual way-shower; and not because my way is better than others, I believe all ways are equal and unique, it just happens to be one way that I feel called to share.
I will also warn you that after much consideration into how much of that way I’ll share, that I have decided to be as candid as possible, within reason. Because it’s easier for me, because it’s more interesting for you, and because much of what I know comes through experience. Slicing off only particular areas of my vision also sounds confusing, like a lot of work, and compromising to my morals. So instead, I am choosing to place myself in the battleground of the world we live in, and I expect I’ll have to wear a little more armour then I’m used to.
We are at an extremely interesting time in our human history, polarity is more apparent than ever before and I’m going to jump in and give my two cents.
And as I do, I intend to transform my small radius of battleground into a safe container to share opinions, learn from each other's differences, safely explore alternative ideas, and support the concept that we are all equally valuable, and unique. To be able to listen in, share your two cents, ask questions or comment (which are greatly appreciated), there is only one prerequisite and that's to treat other people the way you yourself would like to be treated. In this space I promote unity within differentiation.
Something fascinating about putting spiritual and enlightenment principles into writing is that universal knowledge (which with a bit of work and the right teachers, is available to everyone) transfers into two dimensions. A process which takes something that is instantly inner knowing, and thins it out into lines, and lines . . . and lines, and more lines of data and digestible content. And that content can go on for infinity, can be shared in multiple ways, and through multiple vantage points—as how you vibrate will inform how you see. This 'writing assignment’ I've taken on makes me laugh, because not only have I decided to be human in this life, which is already a denser (more material) experience than life in the higher dimensions, I have also decided to take the 3D matrix we live in and hone a craft in two dimensions, which I feel makes the most of my opportunity.
Who I am in this blog is a voice believes in one universal god who goes by many different names, spirits (good and bad) that can attach onto a play a role in our human experience, many different ascended masters across the borders of many religions, fairies, that this earth has a soul of grace, abundance, and unconditional love, and that based on how we vibrate, we can experience our lives a both a living heaven or hell. I also believe in aliens races, and that balance in the world of polarity is the best way to stay healthy and whole. This blog took a one-year hiatus, and the world is completely different than the one it started in. But I am back, and offering full disclosure on as much as I know, and in the kindness way I possibly can, even though some of the content may be bitter medicine for those who are seeking it. I feel quite vulnerable to come out of the closet so to speak, yet I know this is my medicine too, and with one foot in front of the other, here we go.
Warm thoughts to you my friends.
Let breath be your medicine.
Your voice matters too.
* A regulated state means that we are in our parasympathetic nervous system rather than our sympathetic nervous system. When re-living traumatic moments, this is a big factor in our ability to heal. Our rest and digest nervous system response (aka. parasympathetic nervous system response) allows us to bring the energetic of that traumatic moment into our heart which promotes lesson learning, acceptance, transformation and integration.